It is unfortunate that among seekers, we often find that we cannot stick with one particular path or that it seems that one particular path comes constricting or that we see something that we encounter articulated better by another path. Often we lose sight of what we’re attempting to accomplish. Reminding one’s self to not get caught in artificial categories and identifications is incredibly difficult when the very ego that’s destined for annihilation needs those identifications in order to walk into its own grave, as it were.

But that’s the way it goes. Some people, namely those who don’t really get religion, never have to convert, never have to question, never have to bother with the meaning of it all. They want to say a little prayer and follow their little rules and hopefully, when they die, they will get a reward for being good. And those naught ne’er-do-wells? They get punishment. Eternally.

Some people may attempt to attack me for that oversimplified version of what a lot of evangelical Christians believe- but that actually sums it up pretty well, at least for this area, and from what I’ve seen in the Christian book market and online Christian forums and hear from the mouths of such Christians, I pretty much think that the summary isn’t too far off base. The reality is that this would even characterize a lot of Catholic Christianity as well, which pains me to say and greatly saddens me all at once.

Contrary to popular belief, it isn’t about getting to Heaven. It’s never been about getting to some eternal paradise in the sky. That isn’t the point of Christianity. The unfortunate aspect is that this precisely how Christianity is marketed to so many- it appeals to both Greed, as in Greed for Heaven, and Fear, as in Fear of Hell.

Now, please don’t misunderstand me in my saying that- I don’t dismiss that possibility of other realms and that we may be reunited with kith and kin in the great hereafter, it’s just that I don’t think it works like this world in the slightest sense, and that we’re fooling ourselves if we think when we pass from this life into the next that we’ll simply enter into a very earth-like place, except with more light and clouds and mist. Or I could be totally wrong about this, but then, if so, I’ll take it.

Anyway, the point is, for the seeker, things are going to have to change at one point or another. One will end up in different traditions at some point, one will practice something that isn’t totally kosher with some other system at one point, and it all comes back to the fact that we’re actively seeking after something. The problem is that the something is so occluded that it takes years and years to find it, and then in discovering it, well, we happen upon the Ineffable that Christians like to call God and realize the real implications of using words like “Lord” and “King of Kings” and “Alpha and Omega” do little justice to the sheer tremendous Ground of Being of which we’re speaking. You can’t begin to contain God. You can’t begin to fathom Him (or Her or It.) It just doesn’t work that way. We use such words because of the Awe-Inspiring One, we use such words to adorn Him, but He is always, always, MORE.

The Eucharistic Reality of Christ is highly important. We are always in the Presence of Eternity, and the Holy Eucharist is the founding Reality made present to us. What we think happens is that the bread and wine become the Body and Blood of Christ, and all kinds of ridiculous rationalistic tendencies have moved against the Mystery of the Real Presence because they miss the deeper philosophical point of the ritual. We think somehow that the Holy Eucharist is Christ coming into the world, but the reality, the Holy Eucharist is Christ also drawing us into Eternity- the reason the Eucharist is placed in a monstrance and adored is precisely because the Holy Eucharist is the Reality around which everything else centers. We are taken from the basic, everyday reality, into the Underlying Reality, the REAL REALITY, as it were.

It’s late, I’m tired, I should be meditating, and I pray a Gnostic Church would open just down the road from me. Ramblings, as usual, but great ramblings at that.