How do I keep getting spiraled back into Christianity? I’m unsure.

Despite all my romancing of Paganism, despite all the rituals I’ve done, suddenly my mind is somehow focused again on Christ and Sophia, but definitely mostly Christ.

Despite all my skepticism, at this point there is a deep and solid knowing that God is there, that Christ is there. Despite all the the horrific and bizarre things in this world, despite everything about life that doesn’t make sense, deep beyond all that is a core beating with the conviction that yes, in the end, we will all go home, and that Christ is King and that no powers of this world will ever hold us back from God.