MGMT Video: Kids

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This video is incredibly disturbing.

I think that it’s necessary to face it though, because it shows that human nature is uncertain, that we perceive the threats in the world at an early age, and that our infant mind can’t process things and that this creates a great deal of anxiety about the world around us.

But in the end, even though we have comforting images here (the Goddess/God the Mother appears at one point) and even then we have the image of Self or the Absolute, this, too, breaks apart and turns into an infinite chaotic rabbit hole of the Void into which we endlessly spiral.

That is the entire nature and journey of the human soul- we live our lives challenging this strange, empty world that’s in front of us, and then we discover that we cling to what is familiar, but even the familiar will transform into a chaotic Unknown for the mind.

What does it all mean?

It’s so deep, so incredibly deep.

Beaux

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Mytho-Location

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Have you ever watched a movie with friends, and you were all able to declare which character you were in the movie? Or have you read a book and found yourself identifying heavily with one character or another?

Now, let’s take this a step deeper: have you ever read ancient mythology and felt this kind of kindredness to certain characters?

What about the Bible?

I think it’s an experiment worth trying.

I call this process of identifying one’s self in a story as “mytho-location.” That is, the locating of one’s self inside a myth, legend, novel, plot, and what have you.

In Christianity, I daresay the vast majority of people might then read the Bible and identify most heavily with the various Apostles and disciples of Jesus. That is, they are the spectators, the informants, the confidants, of Christ; they pay attention to His Passion, Crucifixion, and Resurrection, but they themselves do not go through it.

Few of us would dare go to the extent of identifying with Christ Himself. Most would shy away from doing this out the outrageous notion of one equating one’s self with God, and others would realize that though this isn’t what one means, identifying with Christ in the Gospel narrative would entail also suffering as He did.

Perhaps we can gather that this is precisely what the Apostles realized later on, as each one of them was martyred- they accepted their identification with Christ and His Passion and endured a fate similar to His.

So anyone who is insane enough to embark on the mystic quest of the good Christian understands that he, too, will be crucified in spirit, and that is not a path for everyone to endure.

Where do you locate yourself in the Christ narrative?

Beaux


The Experience of Identity Loss

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Under everyday circumstances, we talk about the loss of one’s identity. Often this is tied to something such as the loss of one’s career or a partner, something that definitely put you in the realm of social affairs and distinguished you in relation to other people.

However, the week before last, while journeying with Tyler and my friends somewhere, I had a more frightening version of losing my identity.

Without warning, suddenly I was quite confused as to who I was and how it was that I came to be who I am. No doubt, I could identify things such as my name, age, all the usual things; instead, there was something more crucial that suddenly seemed odd and strange and completely out of place in the scheme of reality.

This is certainly an “awareness of being aware,” a strange state of affairs where one’s own awareness stands in contradistinction to one’s personality and identity, a separation of Mind and Name might be a way to explain it better.

The first time I recall ever having such an experience as this was when I was a child, sitting in the bathtub. Suddenly the same oddness and out-of-placeness of myself hit me, of who I was, of my distinction as a person as opposed to other people in terms of individuality.

I do not mean to state that I was unaware that others exist; of course I was aware of that, and of course I am now aware that others are aware. This is a wholly different experience, one that is confusing at best and likely anxiety-provoking at worse.

Perhaps one might call it an awareness of being who one is. Perhaps it is the remnant of a child-like impression of who I was, an outside imposed notion of who I was as opposed to who I really am on the inside.

I realize that stating all these things is quite subtle, and only those who have been through the experience can begin to fathom and relate on what I mean.

The truth is that experiences that others have not had, perceptions and differing degrees of awareness, are ultimately the very “business” I’m in, for want of better terms. Mysticism revolves around this sort of ineffability.

I do want to make it clear that what happened was not the same as the disappearance of the Ego, which is the sudden and blatant absence of the “I” that normally resounds most loudly in the mind. That, too, is an experience that mystics all the time mention, and yet until one encounters it for one’s self, it sounds like pure rubbish.

Perhaps someone out there can give insight into what exactly this experience means or refer me to others who have had it.

Beaux