More Rules about Revenge

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Something I forgot to mention in the blog on revenge:

It’s also a good practice that, if you have a desire to avenge yourself, to offer the person a chance for your mercy. This gives the person in question the opportunity to right their wrongs, remedy their ills, and apologize to try to make things right.

This is not always the case, however, but if you ARE going to take revenge, you might as well be as noble about it as possible.


Revenge and Rules

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Revenge is often regarded as a kind of sin in Christianity, where we’re taught from an early age to turn the other cheek.

It is unfortunate that many of the “faithful” Christians happen to ignore this, and that I happened to be one of the few people I’ve known in my life who actually turned the other cheek.

However, I will also point out that practically speaking, it has never done anything good in this world beyond allowing people who treated me and other people poorly to get away with their evil actions.

Revenge, however, is something that must follow rules.

I’ve had a few people mention that embracing the darker aspect of one is not synonymous with succumbing to it, and I absolutely agree. I also point out that one must fully integrate and work with the dark side in order to understand it and become aware of it on a fuller level.

Revenge is something that I have never taken in my life until now, and it is not synonymous with breaking my moral code so much as it seems synonymous with breaking what I was told to do my entire life that no one else seemed to follow.

True, I do believe that forgiving someone, praying for a higher power to lead someone to see their ills and wrongs, and turning the other cheek ARE the nobler paths to take.

However, though I believe them higher and nobler and more beautiful, I do believe that revenge is a permissible path in so far as it conforms to specific standards.

The highest standard of revenge is exacting it. Never cause more suffering for someone than they caused for you. This is the foremost rule by which to abide; send back to the person the pain and evil and despair they caused you, no more, no less.

Another facet of revenge, too, is to include in the revenge a lesson for the other person. If the individual is prevented from hurting others in the way they hurt you, then you have taken all the higher path for it.

A variation of the Wiccan Creed I’ve heard which seems particularly balanced goes,

“An it harm none, do as ye will
An it harm some, do as ye must.”

I’ve also heard that “the witch that can’t hex can’t heal,” another testimony to the notion that we must work with both the light and the dark.

The problem with the grey area of things is that we must learn where the boundaries are and are not, and this can be difficult.

I don’t see my positions as being particularly outside the bounds here; surely one day Christ will deliver us all from the need of revenge, but until then, I must undo the chains and shackles the society has placed on me to keep me from blazing brightly from within.



Hate in My Heart

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Friday proved difficult for me; I was in an irritated mode all day, not really with a specific reason, and then I ended up having one thing after the next attack me in the bad mood.

I ended posting a response to a particularly upsetting video I saw online that only furthered my realization of just how in control the archons are of this world. The comments I received were normal initially, and then one particular person attacked my wall with a so-called Wall of Text.

We ended up getting into it, and he immediately attacked me with an argumentum ad hominem, saying blatantly mean things to me- a guy who was on my Facebook almost accidentally, who had not had more than two conversations with me and who had seemed like a kind person, suddenly turning into THE biggest asshole.

He ended up blocking me, and I ended up crying- a childish thing on the one hand, but I had enough stress inside of me, and finally I reached the breaking point.

I felt stupid for crying on the one hand, but on the other hand, my body needed it.

The realizations then began coming. I was able to watch myself in the entire situation, able to see what happened inside of me emotionally, and I have come to the point where a virtual breakthrough is possible.

Charting the emotional pattern is not going to as easy as I had imagined, but at any rate, not only did the breakthrough come up, the Shadow came up as well, and the Shadow is in full force.

I have never, in the entirety of my life, began hating someone I did not know so quickly; I have never wished death on someone the way I have on this guy. I have never been so vengeful, but this poor guy, he’s getting all my evil, all my anger, all the pent-up rage at rednecks and stupid people who have continuously ruined not only my life but the world around us.

So, I’m dealing with the rage, the hate, which is welling up from the root chakra- this is not just a heart chakra anger, this is a complete life force vigor type deal.

Which is why it’s dangerous.

But on the other hand, I can also see there is a place for this in my life, that it points still to a deeper pain that’s happened, that my overreaction ultimately comes down to my being on the edge of the breakthrough. All the nastiness is coming up, and god, it’s been coming up for years.

In the end, wishing death on someone cannot be justified, unless the person has killed someone close to you.

But wishing the karma back on them, wishing the suffering that caused you in their vileness back on them, wishing for the gods to bitchslap them is well within my right, and I think it’s about time that I learned this lesson. I’ve been trying to learn it for years and years and years, situations, such as this one, keep occurring, and each time, I hold back in the name of Christ and trying to be Christ-like.

Well, no offense to Christ- I’m going to do what I have to do.

It terrifies me to realize that we all have this dark side, and that we all could devolve into it at any given point. Why I was surprised that this guy had a dark side, I’m not sure; it’s not that I was surprised that he had one, I suppose, so much as it was surprising that he would attack me so quickly.

Back to the whole thing of being misunderstood, but hey, he can go fuck himself.

This is the part where I keep complaining about how Jesus doesn’t tell us how to stop hating someone. I’ve prayed for the necessary graces and charism to stop hating him, to stop wanting to take revenge, and yet my pride gets in the way, and part of me understands somewhere that for him to get back exactly the amount of pain he caused to me is justifiable.

I’ve been unable, but more so unwilling, to meditate. I mean, I can’t bring myself seriously to meditate at this point when I feel so angry and hateful; those feelings just well up and take over, and I began thinking through everything again and getting angrier.

Pray for me, brothers and sisters, that I may know the Will of God.